Introverted Extrovert

After a long time , many stuff happen to me and my surrounding ,

first I got a surgery due to blockage and it's still healing itself.

I been realising many stuff mentally and physically , and improvising myself on it .

First I realised my social skill is totally zero and i sure want to improve it , so i did it by reading some book , somehow a little they helped .

And I been following @rahul m in YouTube for improvising my looks and improve my confident level .

I also realised people don't always like a clown or funny one or nerd like m e, so i will make a adjustment on that too.

And life gave me a hard quote that happen to me a lot , friends , whatever friend it may be , A normal one , a best one , or a close one .No one travel with us for long term in life .

Maybe i didn't got a friend who does it...bruh....

And in these recent days i completely killed my fear of talking to girls , but still i get some trouble in what to talk or how t start a convo. These dropdowns make me a introvert people but I didn't want to .

And I learned not to do stuff if others do it , like having a crush....😵😅

But even after convincing myself and by surrounding to be introvert , my heart still urge to get a best friend for life which maybe just a theory for me...….

This is me after surgey and lost about 6kg (60 -> 54)

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