After a long time , many stuff happen to me and my surrounding , first I got a surgery due to blockage and it's still healing itself. I been realising many stuff mentally and physically , and improvising myself on it . First I realised my social skill is totally zero and i sure want to improve it , so i did it by reading some book , somehow a little they helped . And I been following @rahul m in YouTube for improvising my looks and improve my confident level . I also realised people don't always like a clown or funny one or nerd like m e, so i will make a adjustment on that too. And life gave me a hard quote that happen to me a lot , friends , whatever friend it may be , A normal one , a best one , or a close one .No one travel with us for long term in life . Maybe i didn't got a friend who does it...bruh.... And in these recent days i completely killed my fear of tal...