My life in 12th

 The Evacuation yesterday my setup was totally cleaned and i am so sad for that . My setup was previously in main room of dad's old clinic and now it's moved in a more clumsy one .   In this room it's so hard to keep my legs and make notes in my notes . it's so rude that mom not giving importance to my studying place , come on, I am an Neet aspirant and a 12th student , my studies is important then anything why she didn't realize that. Now I am trying to adjust myself into this new environment and continuing my reading for weekly test 2 . E volution From today I gonna stop telling everyone ( except bros ) about my reading times and showing my notes and start absorbing everyone's reading and make one for me from absorbed skills and ideas . this seems confusing but on implementing it gonna help me a lot then ever.  

  THE GOOD CARNIVOROUS  There's always a friend who blames you for improvement and friends who stop you from improving . I felt these phenomena today and it pinned thought in the mind. first Ram my Bro, I feel like he's being a mistake finding a person for me, although it's for improvement sometimes it hurts  But I ignore them and follow his thoughts. Then Sivaji my bench mate and friend today made one of my rare correct answers useless and I got many problems due to that. SCHOOL STUFF AND LIFESTYLE  today morning three-period physics, got me killed and I am not understanding anything. after that chemistry came and gave several questions. he gave a total of 4 questions I got the answer for 3 correctly and it's not useful though. after lunch, we have been sitting so simply and holiday till April 05 been announced, IIT Madras tour announced, etc..... parents hijacked my mobile so can't use WhatsApp or series, so it had been a mood out today. but eventually, m...

DAY OF FADE AWAY Do you ever trust physics...yeah never , but I did one time and it related so far , i.e. , force ( bond ) between two objects ( maybe persons ) is inversely proportional to distance btw them ,let put this away for a moment . So today , The One week's result day , weekly test is happening today , I competed biology and chemistry so far , but never seen physics . as I though the test was not so tuff ,but my damn brain made silly mistakes ( writing wrong answer in which I know the correct one )  So as the test completed according to my calculation , I got like 120/240 , Not bad nor good . still need to improve myself becoz it's an easiest test and I took this mark. As per this day , I was like …oh ram is studying so let's follow him , oh pw is awesome let's follow him. but from today I never gonna follow anyone ( except for copying and improving character ) and drill my own way . MORAL : THINGS OR PEOPLE NEVER ALWAYS BE WITH US , SO ADOPT YOURSELF AND MOV...

Day of laziness  Today morning woke at 4:30 and started reading physics , but it totally sucks , i cant understand even single line from sir notes , or books. gone to school and in van had a funny conversation with friends . seen that the principle finally got an new car , that wagoner really gave a f. in class, first period is physics and it was totally boring and un understandable. he wrote 2 page for a derivation where physics wallah used half and I totally understand them. even Ram say Pw is an trash , he's an emotion for studies. after that maths came and we gone to commerce and it was totally boring...…. solved 5 Jee mains problems (very hard )    In lunch, made thug life moment by making fun of Sudar.  after that physics storm raised , sir was so angry that even for murmuring he send students out . I asked a single doubt from morning , but he didn't cleared , even clearing didn't made me understand .   after that gone for Pt . No one called me to be team ...

 got half killed by leg pain yesterday ,this is typing on 15 march for yesterday . yesterday the day started with fun in van .  That driver didn't stopped for us to buy pani puri but stopped to make Kishore and Krishnan to drive his Vandi and come to school , for this he cancelled RKJ mam by saying lie about time. Although I said mam about it . In school today started with chemistry, sir came and started by saying questions , at that moment everyone don't know it's my time.  I answered almost 3/4 questions correctly and got near answer in many . for one questions that was wrote before snacks , i gone to A1 , asked help from Deepesh and came to class, class started , sir asked the answer , I told with fast and quick which everyone took almost 30min to figure out the answer. The day till that gone very very very fast as we gone to lunch after a hr ( by feel ) After the lunch the real issue started , maths came to class and sent us ( cs ) out , i know this will happen , so i...

it's a Sunday  downloaded GTA sa and played  3/4 completed solutions lesson , but idk why I can't solve numerical. been chatting with v . day gone so fast . and my speaking about taking clinic from me 😢. nothing to say more . and ram gone to Tirupati  excited to see him with Motta.

Day of realisation 2 Today morning woke at 5:00 sue to some workout last night . studied nothing but seen some utube and wasted the time. At van it was sema fun about ramana and vee . But I am the Eo for him . starting of school biology period took plce , it was so fun and understandable becoz I learnt that a day before he teach and answered many question . continued with maths where prakash didn't showed up and we were taken spied by prasanth , i was doing problems from Mtg that i bougth from A1.

  D ay of realisation people are nor always the same as mode of reproduction in organism , it depend on the place in present in . As like , bond between friends is strong until they are together . so today in class No teachers were came almost we were simple and had no job. I was writing module sums from rishi and reading useless notes by me repeatedly . And maths came and sent cs students out . even there we been so simple and do nothing . after that …..nothing just free period  the positive opinion on A2 became increasing . Today ani dd got job in amazon and got 1l goodies and i am happy for that . coz if she ( bio cs )  is eligible for that . I am eligible too. and there is no one to teach me how to anything , I am always on my way concentrating things I am good with .

 Normal day  Today morning was normal as van --> school  Rishi gave the module 1 and i stared to practice modules from it . in school felt very alone as ram gone back , Sivaji is with bhuvi and no one is there to talk with me. Paneer is going to hostel but his seat is still not for me . In class first period bio , sir took all asexual methods and lastly took fragmentation and regeneration . after that physics , i got fully understand due to the help of physics wallah notes and teaching .i even answered a big question and found a way to solve many questions. after that chemistry , taught molarity , normality and GEW after that maths , so I went to ( sent to ) commerce and there sir is not there , so we waited , waited and waited . I told ramana to ( class polam ) but he refused . after few time sir came and taught graphics and animations which is not for us but for commerce students  after that came home , learnt bio from first ---> gone confusing so left it at ...

 The real A2  yesterday I though only 3/4 of portion is teaches in A2 , but yeah it's true but not in all subjects and today morning in van nothing changed so far . In class i accidentally went to A1 , sad memories . and first period is as usual biology and sir taught what i though missing and that's good. After that chemistry ( minnal ) arrived and i was excited to answer all questions in haloalkene and haloarenes , but that minnal took solutions lesson 😢 .  After that , Some students from Krishna teacher training came to learn how to teach , and it went normal . after that evening after lunch we was totally shitty free from 1-3 , ( first time talked to girls , casually )  after that bio sir made an combine class of A1 and A2 .  At that moment don't know why , but i felt sooooo frustrated and sad for not being in A1 . My friends in A1 are becoming far from me ( even ram in class ) . but i cant mingle with students in A2 as A1 . TOTALLY ITS BEING HELL IN A2 my ...

 07/03/2022 Today I really got pissed off , firstly this is the first day of 12th . I was excited and sad in the same way as they gonna divide our classes . 9:00 ( in school ) Kong came and told , they  gonna divide class and u can go to ur class at 9 : 30 , unfortunately i am the A2 ( not studying class )  First period biology , sir took reproduction instead of genetics which he told he will take .  second period ( and gone all day ) is physics which is more productive on first half and gone hell on second half was soo bad , that we got to stand out ( whole boys ) for talking in the first day . my Bro ram was made sit back ( backest ) and far from me , so I kind of ( really high ) feel alone whole day . But he came on the second half of physics . And the Day Ent in school  Moral in school : Never trust toppers who follow ikcs phenomena  IN house :  came to house at 5:40  and studied electrostatics till 8 and stepped ahead to biology till 9  ...

 Ptm that gave a f to studies  Today 05/03/2022  I had my parents meeting in school , mom was ready to come with me . everything gone good until my marks shown up . i got 120/180 .. Yeah that's bad due to not practicing questions and not studying . this gave me a fire in my ass to read heavily from today . wanna complete eleectrostatic and haloalkenes and haloarenes . And wanna act like loser in class and be a toppr